Prayer Note #36 — The Time of my Life

Dewy Web; photo by GAC

Here I am, Lord.  It’s a little before 5:00 A.M., and I’ve been awake for a half an hour or so, lying in bed, my mind wandering from thought to thought.  I seem to be done sleeping, though the clock tells me that I shouldn’t be.  Have you wakened me for some reason?  Or is my flawed sleep mechanism just playing me a trick?  And just how different are the possible answers to those two questions?

How will you redeem this time?  How will you give it meaning?  Here I am submitting it to you.

All of my time is yours.  But, oh! how I mistreat your gift!  Sometimes I use it to do bad things.  But often I just waste it on things that are not bad in themselves but are simply worthless — temporal wastelands.  Those times would be better spent if I simply sat and day-dreamed.  At least then my mind would be available to you.

But yesterday I lost time to pointless computer games — mindlessly manipulating pixels on a screen.   And I read the bowling column in the newspaper.  But, Lord, you know I don’t bowl.  I studied the high school sports line scores for schools and sports I care nothing about.

I really feel sometimes as if I am being led and enticed into these things by an enemy — someone who wants to damage my life.  But, of course, I go quite willingly.  I stand out on the street corner and watch eagerly for him to come by, so that I can go off with him.  Sometimes in the midst of these trips into the wastelands — sometimes I feel the devil’s pleasure, delight at my wastefulness of your gift.  He doesn’t care too much how I use the time you give me, as long as I do not use it for you.

I’m very sorry and ashamed about this.  Redeem me more and more — redeem me and my time.

©2012 Gary A. Chorpenning; all rights reserved.

 “We must take steps to channel our interests, our passion, and our desires into paths of importance and ways of blessing.  We should seek the kingdom [of God] — with passion.”  Stuart Briscoe in Time Bandits: Putting First Things First

“We are God’s own; to him, therefore, let us live and die.  We are God’s own; therefore let his wisdom and will dominate all our actions.  We are God’s own; therefore let every part of our existence be directed toward him as our only legitimate goal.”  John Calvin in The Golden Booklet of the True Christian Life


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